After Luna departed, I returned to my well used bed and tried drifting off to the sleep that neither of us had allowed. I smelled her on the pillows and thought about her wonderful hair that I had enjoyed so much. I liked calling her Moon, but my mind would have to shift to Luna now that I knew her real name. I understood why she’d made that modification and wondered if she used Moon for other situations. I hoped that I would be able to see her again soon; I wanted to spend more time with her.
I had a difficult time accepting her remarkable comment about my bisexuality. I’d never met a woman so open before. Most of my female sexual partners eventually got used to the idea of my bisexuality and some were accepting very early, but none had been seeking a bisexual man. While women found me attractive, this part of me was an unwanted surprise. Luna’s attitude was a difficult concept for my brain to take in. I chose to let sleep takeover.
I awoke rested and smiling, taking in the satisfaction of the night’s activities and still feeling Moon in my bed. Eventually, I left the bedroom and enjoyed some coffee to start my day at noon. While enjoying my wakeup brew with thoughts of the night before, I used my laptop to send a missive to Luna. We hadn’t exchanged phone numbers yet, so email was the only way to reach her. I told her how much I had valued our time together and hoped for more. I also thanked her for staying so late and worried that she’d be tired during her school time. I ended the note, “Thinking of you…” But then I decided to include my phone number at the end. She could decide what she wanted to do with that information. I wanted to keep us moving forward.
It was not until dinner time that I received a response from Luna. There was a text which said, “Hi. Thinking of you too…” I wondered where she was and I immediately responded asking how she was. “Tired but good,” was the quick reply. “Are you home now?” I queried and she replied, “I’m in my bed and likely to fall asleep.” “Wish that I were in your bed with you,” I entered with full honesty. “My children are in their rooms on this floor, so that can’t happen.” Now I understood the full protective nature of this woman for her children. She might have given me a phone call, but her voice might be overheard. She would keep me at arm’s length about anything to do with her children. They wouldn’t know of me until some future time. I began to feel that this was like being with a married woman, which technically she was. “I’ll text you more later.” I sensed that she was already drifting off to her much needed sleep. “Pleasant dreams,” I replied while envisioning her snuggled alone into her feminine bed.
What was her room like? Was her bed soft with lots of pillows like many women? Would I get an opportunity to be in her bed naked with her? I would have to be patient and allow this new attraction to unfold in its own time. I hadn’t texted much before but I could foresee a lot more texting in my near future. The positive energy was filling my mind and my house.
On Saturday morning my phone announced a new text, “My ex has the kids and I can visit, if u r free.” It was music to my ears. I hadn’t anticipated a return so soon and that suggested that she had truly enjoyed our time too. I responded that I didn’t have plans and would be more than happy to see her again. “Great!” “Come for dinner and more…” I suggested. “Does that mean I can get more massage?” she entertainingly queried. “I’d love to have you on my table again.” I was enjoying this texting and the speed of communication. I knew I would enjoy her naked body even more and it seemed as though that was imminent. Luna accepted my dinner invitation and I was fortunate that she didn’t have any food issues, so I could plan what to provide.
“Are you feeling rested?” I texted and she declared that her body was ready for more time with my hands and more. I was cheered to receive these words and expressed my own readiness to have more body time with her. Luna cautioned that she needed to complete her study work in order to be free for the evening. I ceded any remaining time and suggested that she text me when she was on the way.
I decided that I had everything in the house for a simple Italian pasta and salad. I always had bottles of red wine in the wine rack and I checked to make sure that I had the makings for a martini if she wanted to have one. I chose to keep myself busy with cleaning and putting fresh sheets on the bed. The current sheets were from Thursday night’s excitement and truly needed to be replaced. I had indulged myself with a second night of sleeping with the scent of Moon still lingering in my bed. I wondered if that nurtured my feeling that I was falling in love or was it just another clue that I was already in that state and seeking affirmation.
For me, being in love meant just wanting to spend time with that person. It didn’t matter what was happening. Non-sexual time was just as happy as sexual time. Touching her or looking at her were equally stimulating. My mind and my heart were melding together to convince me that I had discovered rich paydirt for my deep longings. I had to be careful not to push too far ahead. I wouldn’t be untruthful, but I needed to avoid scaring her away. I couldn’t be overwhelming, but I didn’t want to be unreal, avoiding what might be obvious to her. I was the one struggling with being in love. There, I’d said it, I was in love!
Did I feel differently after that realization? Of course, I did. I’m sure that my smile broadened and my body might have weighed ten pounds lighter. The sounds of the birds outside my window were more melodic and the light coming through my tree was more dazzling. Were the smaller life forms also aware of my change of state in less than 48 hours? Would I relate to all energies differently now? I hadn’t fallen in love in almost a decade and maybe longer. Apparently, I wasn’t too old to discover that remarkable state of being in love.
The future that I had to think about was only the immediate. I wouldn’t envision how she might respond if I told her. I wouldn’t consider the pain if she changed her mind or rejected me. I would just enjoy the lightness of my current state and nurture my inner happiness, hoping that it would be infectious. I had had others fall in love with me when I wasn’t in that same state, so I could understand how it might be for her. I’d always spoken truthfully but with tenderness to those who were more enamored of me than I was of them. I couldn’t make her love me. It would happen or not and that was one of the great mysteries of the universe.
But what if she were falling in love with me too? That was too large of a question for me to take on. Now I was truly jumping the gun and not thinking prudently. I was only in control of myself and wouldn’t complicate the situation with more “what ifs?” I wouldn’t preplan other than the cooking of dinner. I would do my best to be in the moment and avoid any anticipatory thoughts. I would listen when she spoke and not take too much meaning in her choice of words. Just enjoy being with her. Isn’t that how you know you are in love?
I would avoid worrying about my relationship failures of the past. I would speak more about the present. Her request for massage suggested that she wanted more sexual time and I was likely to at least have that and that would be wonderful in and of itself. My feelings were so much more than physical. It had been so long ago the last time I was sure I was in love. I was a different man now and would need to take a new path. Perhaps that was the lesson that she was bringing to me. Just love and let happen what will happen. Oh God…
I was so elated when her text came that she was on the way which meant only a little more than 30 minutes existed before she would arrive at my house. All of dinner, the massage room, the bed and I were waiting for her. I opened the wine and had some to calm myself. I did my best not to envision her arrival and my response. I wanted all of me to be genuine and unplanned.
The 30 minutes didn’t pass quickly and I double checked everything in the kitchen and the lighting in the house to be just as inviting as they could be. I was fortunate that my house had dimmers on many of the lights and I could add warmth to the cherry cabinets and art work which bounced the light around the room and onto me. She must have found me appealing and attractive or she wouldn’t have stayed until 5 AM. She must be seeking more with me or she wouldn’t be returning so soon. These thoughts bolstered my faith in what was soon to be. I sat and did some Reiki in the living room to center myself and bring my thoughts into the present so that I would be in that state when Luna arrived.
I watched through the glass in the front door so that I could be alerted as she found a parking spot in my neighborhood. I knew what her car looked like and observed her able to find a spot across the street from my house. It was a moment before she exited the vehicle and I wondered if she needed to center herself as well before taking the next step forward in what neither of us knew would unfold.
When I saw her car door open, I came out onto the elevated balcony to welcome her with my smile and open arms. “How great to see you again,” I declared to Luna and my nearby neighbors. The same neighbors who had seen many men climb those stairs were now able to witness a sexy, beautiful Asian woman happy to come to me. Luna smiled brightly as she crossed the street and climbed the cedar stairs to where I was ready to greet her on this September evening.
Luna carried a small bouquet of flowers as her offering and I was cheered by her sense of equality and manners. My smile must have easily given away my happiness level that would have removed any reticence on her part if there were any. I didn’t need to make a public display of physicality and I well understood the Asian sense of what took place in public and what could take place with a door closed. Perhaps Luna was grateful for my sensitivity on this issue as I ushered her inside and closed the door before thinking about a welcoming kiss.
She immediately slipped off her loose shoes as she entered my living room and turned as I closed the door. Luna quickly connected her body to mine while she still had the bouquet in her right hand. Her red lips opened to meet mine and my hands clasped her thick waist while the electrons flowed in both directions between our moist lips. She stretched out her right arm to discard the flowers on a nearby table so that both of her hands could clasp behind my neck while she arched her back to curve her body sensually into mine.
She had chosen tight black pants and a blood red satin blouse to match the reds that were on the walls in my house and in her hair. Was she showing me that she noticed my desirable colors? Did we find the same colors attractive? Was she wanting to increase my level of passion? Time would tell more. For the moment I would just enjoy the immediate blending of our lips and the feminine smells that she brought into my masculine environment.
I had chosen to be understated with blue jeans and a dark green light wool sweater. Clothes that could be easily removed and didn’t’ reveal any of the inner challenges that I was feeling. My jeans bulged almost immediately and Luna smiled, “Well, aren’t you a welcoming man!” “I’m really happy to have you in my arms again so soon,” I replied while looking directly into her shining dark eyes. She dropped her eyelids and I couldn’t help but say, “You’re as attractive as the last time I saw you.” Luna laughed with ease, “I was so happy you were free tonight. My ex has the children until tomorrow afternoon.”
It was so strange to me that we needed to structure our time around the rules of her relationship with her husband. I didn’t feel any jealousy, but this was new territory for me. I had been with married women before, but hadn’t been in love with any of them. Now that I was in love with this woman, I understood that I would have more complicated and complex feelings. I endeavored to keep all of my feelings positively directed toward Luna and see where we went.
“You’re always welcome in this house. I want you to be comfortable here.” I directed her to the dining table with one arm and picked up her flowers with the other. “It was so sweet of you to bring some flowers.” “Those are from my yard.” Was she sharing more about the space where I wanted time with her? “Your house is so warm and welcoming and seems to express you.” “There isn’t much about me that’s hidden anymore.”
I looked for a glass vase for the flowers. After arranging the stems, I placed them on an end of the table where they would grace the dinner settings, but not be in the way of us seeing each other. “It smells great in here,” she complimented as she approached the pots on the stainless steel stove. “I just cooked simply tonight.” Luna tasted the pasta sauce with her pinky finger that she slipped into her red ringed mouth to savor. “Yum,” she said as she brought her sexy body into contact with mine, offering to share her saucy red lips. I didn’t hesitate, but matched our lips together next to the cooking and knowing that I would enjoy her more than the meal. I hoped that she might feel the same.
Luna reached down and undid the zipper on my jeans. She dropped into a squatting position in front of me and next to the stove. She reached into my pants and withdrew my bulging member and pulled it towards her. Her red lips opened wide to accept the flesh that I was presenting eagerly. She sucked on just the head for a minute before grabbing my clothed ass pulling me into her so that she could take in most of my hard shaft. My mind thought about bending her over the table but I held back.
“Do you have a condom nearby?” Luna asked while sensually taking my cock into her warm, wet mouth. She didn’t wait for an answer but turned around and dropped her black pants to her ankles before bending over the dining table just as I had envisioned. Her smooth ass was without panties already. I was incredulous that we were having the same visions of merging our well fitting bodies. I pulled a condom from a nearby desk drawer and covered my ever ready dick. Luna had every confidence in her sexual attractiveness and in my practical nature.
I approached her naked butt with my covered shaft and used my middle finger to discover that she was already wet and ready for penetration. Luna was a sexual woman who knew what she liked and what she wanted. I appreciated her self awareness and understanding of the man who was with her. I didn’t care that this suggested a ton of experience on her part. I was likely in her same category.
Luna clasped either side of the wooden table as she arched her back ready for me to fill her with my manhood. I spread her ass cheeks apart with my warm hands and slid my cock up and down her crack to ready her for what was destined to come inside. She reached underneath her pubic bone and spread her labia wide apart to expose the opening that was eagerly welcoming me inside.
I didn’t hesitate, but pushed forward and felt her strong pussy muscles grasp my shaft as I slowly entered. I couldn’t believe how warm she was and my hands were enjoying her strong hips that could support her while I thrust back and forth inside. The same hand that had spread her labia was now rubbing her clit and I felt Luna’s inner muscles tighten against me. I was extremely excited by this sexy woman and well understood that we had a whole night ahead of us. I avoided orgasm which could have easily taken place in the first few minutes of passion at the dining table. More than once Luna brought herself to powerful orgasms as her body shook free any inhibitions she might have had. No tensions from home or school remained as she collapsed onto the table while my hard cock still filled her hot body.
“I had told myself to be in the moment and not plan anything,” I breathed onto her neck while bending over her back. “I think this qualifies!” Luna laughed openly which caused my cock to get pushed outside of her. “Now I’m hungry,” she declared as she slid her pants back onto her smooth body. I pressed my clothed body against hers and pressed our lips together in a tight embrace. “You’re amazing!” I announced with the afterglow of intimacy.
Our shining eyes met and I knew that I would have to tell her about my feelings, but I needed to find the right moment. Now was not the time. Luna poured wine into both of our glasses from the open bottle that I had placed on the table. She offered one glass to me and said, “To more happiness!” As we clinked our glasses, I replied, “To more…”
We took seats on opposite sides of the table but we were still only a few feet apart and the positions allowed for direct eye contact which both of us were needing as we were discovering each other. We talked about her school and how busy she was but stayed away from family issues until I asked about her limited free time. Luna spent her daytimes in school while her children were in their schools. Afternoons were homework for everyone and evenings allowed for family time. Every other weekend the kids spent with their father and that was when she had her personal time. Some Thursday nights the children would also be with their father or his parents and that was how she came to have time to meet me at the bar. I was fortunate to have the free weekend right away.
When I told Luna that I hadn’t made any dessert, she said, “Another glass of wine is all the dessert that I need.” I filled her glass and watched with shining eyes as I saw her slip her pants off again. She rested her bare ass on the edge of the table where we had just eaten, exposing her private parts for our pleasure. I dropped to my knees and slid my head between her smooth legs. She reached them around my body and pulled me fully into her pussy which was still wet from our earlier activity. She knew how to make a great dessert!
I plunged my face into her pussy with gusto as if I hadn’t eaten in a year. She tousled my hair but kept hers nicely quaffed. I licked and sucked her clit and thrust my tongue into her body where I had plunged my hard cock earlier. As Luna orgasmed, she squeezed my head on both sides with her strong legs. She had a remarkable libido and I was a fortunate man to enjoy her sensuality.
After she orgasmed twice, Luna suggested that she could now be on my massage table without thinking only about sex. She confessed that the first time she was on my table, she had hoped I would satisfy her sexually. “And my hopes as well as my pussy were well taken care of. And now I’m here for more.” “I’m so happy to have a whole night with you again at my house. You’re so sexy and make me very aroused.” “Maybe you should be naked for the massage too,” she said with an alluring smile. I was tempted to tell her then that I loved her, but I restrained myself and brought my lips up to meet her red lips in a passionate kiss that shared the taste of her pussy between us.
We left her pants on the floor and I firmly placed my hands on her wide hips as we climbed the stairs to the massage room. When we reached the top landing, she bent over and fully exposed herself to my delighted eyes. “You’d better get on the table, or you won’t be having any massage,” I warned. She sprightly moved into the massage room and quickly removed her remaining clothing while also letting down her beautiful hair. I set the lighting and the music before removing all of my clothes. I lit a candle in front of the Buddha offering gratitude.
This would be a more sensual massage than usual and I was eager to be fully naked with this amazing woman who was holding my heart, even if she didn’t know it. I oiled up my hands and made my center connection with her chi. The Reiki flowed quickly and strongly from my naked body to hers through the medium of my hands. Luna hummed with satisfaction as she took in the heat that soothed her body just as the orgasms had done.
When I was standing at the top of the table my erect cock slid easily along the smooth contours of her black hair with the red streaks. There was something very satisfying and stimulating about that image and sensation. Luna must have sensed my arousal as she reached underneath to massage my firm balls increasing my breathing. When I massaged her legs, she spread them wider than the first massage and arched her back to fully expose her pussy. I slipped in a finger and massaged her G spot until she closed tightly on my finger as her whole body shuddered in response. While I was massaging her small feet, I kissed her toes with affection, longing to do the same to her nipples.
I asked Luna to turn over sooner than usual and she readily did so while spreading her legs wide just as she had done on the other side. I wanted to rush to her breasts but I restrained myself and connected with her chi in the middle of her abdomen first. After I sensually massaged Luna’s torso, I could hold back no further and softly pressed my face between her wonderful orbs while placing my right hand flat against her very wet pussy. She pushed against my hand and pulled my face tightly against her body. Luna’s smell filled my head and my loins with desire. I tucked my middle finger inside her and quickly found her G spot. I rubbed hard and roughly against that spot as her body writhed on the table with my head still firmly planted between her breasts. She let go of my head to clutch onto the sides of the table as another thunderous orgasm filled the room.
I wanted to be inside her and merge our bodies in passionate embrace. While she was recovering, I slipped on a condom and pulled her to the side of the table while lifting her legs up onto my shoulders. She easily positioned her pussy so that my cock was directly in line. I kept my hands on her legs and let her take control of my entry into her hot body. She pulled against my body slowly savoring the pleasures as her pussy was filled. When I was half way in she tightened her pussy’s grip on my shaft. “Now push fast,” she directed and I thrust firmly past her hard grip until my balls were smacked up tightly against her ass. “Ahh, yes…that’s…” she trailed off as her body shook with another orgasm that prevented her from any verbal expression. She was so satisfying to be with. How could I not be in love with her?
While Luna was still in orgasmic mode, I began a series of long slow full thrusts and even pulled my cock all the way out a few times so that she could feel me enter her repeatedly. I had to restrain myself from orgasm and leaned in to kiss her while my cock remained deep inside. I kissed her breasts and nibbled on her nipples. “We need to go to the bed,” I said with my need in mind. She readily complied and pulled me by the hand to the bedroom. She lay face down with her head between two pillows while I straddled her prone body.
My hard shaft rubbed between Luna’s ass cheeks and she reached around to spread them apart so that my cock could tease her darker hole. I pushed my cock down further and found my way into her eager pussy. Once I was firmly inside, I moved into a plank position and began serious downward thrusts of my hard dick with my torso smacking against her buttocks. She squeezed tightly while I plunged in and out and I knew that I was close. She now knew my signs as well and said, “Cum in me. Fill me. Fuck me.” Those words took me over the top and I released all that I had to give. My whole body shook in bliss and fulfillment as our naked bodies completed nature’s act.
I was emptied and my body had lost its strength. I slowly collapsed onto Luna and then pulled her onto her side while my cock was able to remain inside. She snuggled her body up against mine while she rubbed her clit to a final orgasm which was magnified by my firm shaft still filling her wet pussy. Now both of us relaxed into the bed and allowed our breathing to slow. My face was enjoying the smell and feel of her hair and before I knew it the words released from my lips. “I love you.”
I felt Luna’s body tighten and her breathing pause as those words struck her flesh and soul. The air in the room hung in a paused state. I sensed that she heard those words as an onus, a burden to honor and somehow repay. I didn’t want her to feel challenged by my words of love. I kept Luna firmly against my body, even as my cock slipped from her warmest place. “You may well think it’s too soon for me to know I feel something so deep, but it’s how love works for me. I haven’t fallen in love often, but when I have, it was always immediate for me. I know myself only too well at this point in life. I said those words to be honest with you. We agreed to always be honest and it wouldn’t be honest for me to be in love and not tell you.” Luna remained still and quiet while I explained my feelings.
“You’re so sweet. I enjoy my time with you.” “Don’t say anything you don’t mean. I don’t need you to be in love with me for me to enjoy being in love with you. I’m happy just to have you here and to enjoy you as you are.” With these words of clarity and finality she relaxed back into me released from the burden that she thought she might have to carry. I would accept her as she was and not try to mold her as her husband might have done. I sensed that some parallels from earlier parts of Luna’s life were drifting into her head and she worked to keep them at bay. She too would enjoy the immediacy of the moment and not consider the future. We both drifted off to sleep with our minds, bodies and spirits connected. We were one for now and that was all that mattered to both of us.
We must have exhausted each other because we slept closely together until the morning light came drifting through the windows to alert us that Sunday had arrived. Neither of us noted any of the sleeping sounds of the other. For while we had spent the night together before this was our first sleeping with each other. I knew that my hair always looked funny after sleeping but I was happy to see that Luna’s hair was just as I had last seen it after whispering words of love to her. I hoped that my words from last night had settled the matter that we would just nurture our enjoyment of time together. That was all that we could manage.
I was a late sleeper, but I awakened before Luna and took the time to further my happiness by watching her sleeping in my bed. She was lovely and I was delightedly attracted to her. It was no longer a surprise for me that I had fallen in love with her. My smiling face greeted the first opening of Luna’s eyes as she turned to see me looking at her. “Have I been sleeping a long time?” “Apparently, you were sleeping as much time as you needed.” She laughed at my Buddhist way of speaking as she pulled me onto her and kissed my lips sweetly. I loved the way her body felt next to me. I could have stayed that way for a long time just charging up my senses with who she was.
“I have an important test tomorrow and can only stay until noon today. You would make it difficult to study.” “Yes, but you might be smiling more! I understand and won’t restrain you beyond the stroke of 12. Do you drink coffee or tea?” “Of course, I drink tea. Do you have herbal teas?” “Yes, but I’m sure they pale in comparison to what you had in your shop.” “Not to worry; I will bring some next time.” There she was again speaking of another time. I hadn’t scared her too much with my talk of love. I smiled and pressed my lips softly against hers while my hand caressed her lustrous hair.
It was necessary for both of us to clean before wandering downstairs. Luna asked me to bring her bag from downstairs that had her toiletries. We showered together and made thick lathers of soap on each other’s bodies. Both of us looked entertainingly attractive with our soapy layers. Our hands were playful and touched sensitive parts with joy and familiarity that was the birthing of a new relationship. We were both still fulfilled from our night and didn’t need to have another passionate session. We would have more than just sex and not worry about what we called it. We would just enjoy one another; any kind of play nurtured our happiness.
When we got downstairs, we laughed at the mess we had left on the table from our dinner. Neither of us would have done that on our own, but we had had more pressing issues than clearing the table. Before I did that, I found my tin of various teas and placed it on the table for Luna to make a selection. She cleared the plates and flatware while I dealt with the food items. In no time the room was ready for another meal. Luna didn’t laugh when she saw my commercial herbal teas but chose a nice Celestial Seasonings product. I made coffee and boiled some water before I moved on to biscuits and scrambled eggs. Luna commented that she was happy to get something baked fresh which she hadn’t made herself.
It was still warm enough at the end of September to have our breakfast on the back deck where the 100 year old beech tree dominated the space. Luna commented on the tree and I informed her that it was older than all of the houses in the neighborhood. There were lichens and moss growing on the trunk which gave a sign that the air quality was exceptionally good. I thought of her as the grand old lady of my neighborhood. She lent grace and longevity just by being. We ate heartily and talked openly with both of us sharing smiles and happy bodies. “I like coming to your Reiki tree house,” Luna declared at the conclusion of our meal while we were still enjoying our beverages, relaxing in the dappled sunlight. “You’re welcome to be here whenever you’re able. We’re in such different places in our lives. You’re still so busy raising children and I’m semi-retired. I have lots of free time and you have so little.”
“I might not be able to be here again until next Thursday and I won’t know for sure until the day before. My ex makes things so difficult and unpredictable.” “How did you meet him?” Luna explained that she had been a worker in her parent’s restaurant in Chiang Rai and Steven had come there for meals since he lived nearby while he was doing some work for the city. Eventually, Steven explained that he kept coming there because he wanted to spend time with Luna more than he wanted her mother’s cooking. In those days, it was common for Thai women to get married off to Caucasian men so that they could have a better life financially. Thai parents endured the loss of their children knowing that they could acquire grandchildren who would have it much easier.
After Luna had born three children, Steven found a new female interest and was even bold enough to find his mistress living quarters only a few blocks away from Luna and Steven’s house. When Steven went out running, he would return sweaty and need to take a shower which covered the smells of the other woman. Eventually, Luna learned of this arrangement which was a breaking point in their marriage.
I was amazed at the boldness of this man, but Luna went on to explain that his family was one of the early founding families of the United States and all of them had a sense of entitlement. She was just an immigrant without any finances of her own. How could she challenge this man?
It had been during one of Luna’s trips to Thailand when her mother noted the change in her daughter which prompted a telling of this situation. Luna’s mother knew that the children were what was important and Luna would have to return to the US where she had to insist on a divorce and custody of the children. Luna’s confidence was renewed and she found an attorney who set the proceedings in motion.
Five years later, the only thing that was settled was that Steven, who was no longer living at home, was responsible for all finances for the home where Luna lived with the three children. Multiple trips to court were required to force him to make payments that were already scheduled. Even after losing in court and paying for both attorney’s costs, Steven would delay payments. Of course, I only learned one side of the story, but I didn’t hear anything that was inconsistent with cases I had read while studying law.
During Luna’s telling of this difficult tale, I stood up behind her and rubbed her shoulders and neck reducing the tensions that she was building in reliving those challenging times. At the end of the story, she placed her right hand on top of mine and leaned her head and long hair onto those layered hands. There was a new sense that life could be less hard and more empathetic than what she had endured with her husband. She exhaled long and deeply, releasing some of those pent up negative emotions that Steven had generated multiple times. She kissed my hand and said, “Can we go for a walk?”
There was a part of her that needed nurturing more than sex. She was confident in her ability to arouse a man and to enjoy multiple orgasms. She seemed so burdened by her financial situation and the lack of control over how her husband treated their children. I couldn’t fix any of that or even influence it in the least way, but I could help Luna let go of anger, frustration and worry. Those emotions wouldn’t help her in the fight with Steven.
In my own mind I had to refer to him as the husband while Luna chose to call him her ex, even though that was not official until the court declared it so. As long as he was officially the husband, I was officially an affair and I better understood why she might need to keep me hidden. I could end up in court to demonstrate that she was an unfaithful wife. What a mess!
We chose to take the pleasant walk along the bay shore which provided a clear view of sailboats on the water with the New York City skyline in the far distance. There was good energy to be found along this path with other walkers and runners always offering smiles and morning greetings. It was a good way to start the day and take on positive energy. Luna would need that recharge on many occasions during our time together.
By the time we returned to the house, Luna had to be on her way home. After she had put all of her things together, we enjoyed long sensual kisses in the living room. “I’ll let you know when I can about my next visit.” “I know you have so many pressures. I don’t want to be another one added to your complicated life.” She looked in my eyes and declared, “You’re so sweet and good to me. Thank you.” I pulled Luna into me and gave one last supportive hug before letting her go. “I love you,” slipped so easily from my lips and Luna snuggled deeper into my chest, accepting my love.
No more words were said and I escorted Luna to her soccer mom vehicle while neighbors watched behind window curtains. I wasn’t sad seeing her go, but nurtured all of the good feelings that she had elicited during our overnight. I was blessed having her burst open my life. I was confident that more blessings would be coming from this remarkable woman.